i've finally decided to move.

[if you would like my new blog address, just drop me a msg and i'll get back to you.]

this blog will remain here for sentimental purposes. i may check back here from time to time. :)

thanks to my tuition kid, i recently got to watch twilight on dvd which i missed because i was lying in the hospital in australia. and i've gotta say, the movie really does not do ANY justice to the book. i mean, if you only watch the movie without reading the book, you would have thought that the book was really lousy. there are movies that makes you want to go read the original book. but this movie, well, makes you go 'huh?' after watching it.

from the movie, you can't tell why bella is so madly in love with edward and vice versa. the two leads totally have no chemistry with each other, there's not much development of any of the characters, edward climbing up the tree looks so wrong, the cullen family trying to protect bella at the baseball looks so funny and well, i could just imagine the hundred and one ways that the show could be so much better. but hey, i'm no movie director or producer. so i'm not saying i'll do a better job. blame it on the fact that i read the book before the movie. and so recent at that too. unlike the harry potter movies. where i read the book donkey years ago, such that when the book goes to screen, i can hardly remember the details and so i can enjoy the movie so much better. :P

anyway my sis left me the book, twilight, to read when she left melbourne back to singapore.

at first, i was kinda unwilling to read it because firstly, it's quite a thick book and my hands were not really strong enough to hold on to such a book for a long period of time. secondly, my concentration on any particular activity was pretty low and i just want to sleep after like after five minutes into doing anything. so, after more than a month later, i finally got so bored at the hospital (i only had the tv to entertain me and it kept showing tennis and cricket which i'm not really interested in so i spent most of my time sleeping) that i got my mum to let me read the book.

perhaps it's been awhile since i really sat down (actually i was lying down most of the time when i read the book) and read a book (working sucks up all your energy and reading a book and finishing it was almost impossible), but i got really all wrapped up in the book and i went on to buy the next three books in the series (even though my sis had already bought them, but they're all back in singapore and i didn't want to wait so long to read all of them).

call it a waste of money or whatever you like, but having something to do, other than sleeping and watching boring television, gave me a goal, a purpose to accomplish and practically to wake up to. the books even gave me a discussion topic with the nurses! i was kinda like competing with one of them to see who could finish all four books first! :)

the books were really captivating and i could not put them down. i would spend several hours a day reading them and i finished all four books in just two weeks! i guess the books, worshipped by girls all over the world, were so fascinating because, well, which girl could resist a love story that's like a fairytale and wish that they themselves could find such a perfect gentleman who loves and protects them and live only if you were alive?

well, everyone knows that it's impossible to find such a man in reality. so we live in our imaginations whilst reading the book. and it gives us an hour or two, an escape to a world which we can only hope to exist. :)

it's raining again for the second day running!! finally after so many hot days, we're getting some cool days. if only everyday was like that. then i'll be a very happy girl. no more sitting in my wheelchair and just sweating the day away.

anyway i've made some progress with my mobility. i can now walk to the toilet on my own! finally don't really need the commote anymore. so am pretty glad about that. at least gaining back some of my independency. it's not nice to have to depend on others all the time. i am an independent person by nature. and i like to be able to do things myself. it makes me feel kinda lousy to have to depend on others all the time. i don't really like to ask for things. troubling others is not really my forte.

i spent my days in the hospital being a very good patient because i don't like to disturb the nurses. i feel bad that i have to keep bothering them. like maybe pick up something that i accidentally drop. or going to the toilet too often (so i try to limit myself). or helping me to get something that i cannot reach. so i just wait until a nurse happen to walk into the room or someone comes to visit.

my family and friends have been really very accommodating. trying their best to make life easier for me. to make sure that i was comfortable. i feel really blessed. thank god for the gift of them.

still, i wonder when i can be fully independent. soon, i hope. i want to wear a nice dress and be able to walk in it to ade's rom. as unlikely as it seems, i shall just pray and hope for the best! :)